Spread the Love by Silence

Back track to a conversation I had with my SIL in the Winter of 2008 while we were on our way to try on my wedding dress.

She knew of our desire to have our own little football team of mini Nate’s and Kristine’s.
That day I remember telling her that there was so much hate in the world,
and I wasn’t 100% sure I wanted to bring children into all that evil.
Was it worth it?
Wasn’t it selfish of me?
We discussed back and forth.
We shared our thoughts.

Fast forward to the tragic, horrific events yesterday.
My heart aches. 
How could this happen?
I know I can’t answer these questions.
I cringe at the day I have to explain the acts of evil and hatred to M&M.
How will I explain it to them, when I don’t understand.
I have had a hard relationship with Him for some time now.
Not something I’m proud of.
It’s something I work at every.single.day.
On days like yesterday it’s easy to cast God aside.
To blame him.
How could He let this happen?
Such a {human} thing to do.
Look for someone, something to blame.
It just ends up with more hatred in our hearts.
I know people are talking about more gun control.
Unfortunately, criminals and crazies do NOT and will NOT abide by laws.  
If a human wants to hurt another human they will find a way.
This is a {human} problem.
Can humans fix it? 
I don’t know the answers.
But I do know I want to be able to look into my girl‘s eyes and say how I am making an intentional effort in fighting the evil in this world.
How can each of us help?
I will turn to Him.     
Lift it all up to Him.
I acknowledge there is evil.  
But I know and hold on to the fact that for every evil in the world, there are hundreds more willing, able, helping, loving hands to pick up the wounded.
Let’s focus on healing the hurt, 
pushing for peace, 
encouraging empathy. 
Do you pray? If you do please send up a prayer.
If you’ve been here awhile even with all my imperfections 
one thing I do believe in is the power of prayer. 
And the power of good people

Please join us in the movement below.
On Tuesday, December 18th, there will be a blogger day of silence. 
We are asking that your post on Tuesday be of just the image/button above and that’s it. 
Please try to not post anything else that day if possible.
We are also raising money that will go to an organization in the memory of this tragedy. 

Here is the official description of the support service we are donating to:

“Newtown Youth and Family Services, Inc. is a licensed, non-profit, mental health clinic
and youth services bureau dedicated to helping children and families achieve their
highest potential. NYFS provides programs, services, activities, counseling, support
groups and education throughout the Greater Newtown area.

Please visit THIS PAGE to make your donation.

Thanks to Neely for sharing and setting this up! 

I’m a hugger, and proud of it {wink}.
Sending hugs to each one of you.
I hope you get to spend your weekend with people you love.   


  1. Beautifully wrote girl. I had these exact same feelings yesterday. I blamed him and then last night I cried and bawled and felt ashamed that I blamed him. He’s not to blame. I agree 100% we need to pray and pray hard.

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