This post is sponsored by JTV. I was paid for this post and received a JTV jewelry piece for me, my mom and one to giveaway.
Oh motherhood. How you stretch me in ways I never thought possible. Just when I think my heart can’t hold anymore love, motherhood proves me wrong in the best way possible.
Motherhood. I’m in the thick of it.
Zeno is baby number 3. When I was pregnant with him the dreaded “this could be my last baby” thoughts haunted me. If I’m being honest I felt the same way with the girls. I tried to soak up every.little.thing. which I’m sure most mothers do.
The thing is things seem different this time around. We are blessed with three kids. When Nate and I talk about our chaotic blessed life, we feel good where we are. Dare I say we even feel complete with our little family of five??
Every little milestone Zeno hits that we celebrate I also die a little inside. Dramatic much? Maybe a tad, but it’s definitely warranted in my opinion. What if Zeno is my last baby? Just writing that out seems surreal.
First steps, also means the LAST first steps to witness. Ever. The idea of NEVER being pregnant ever again puts a huge lump in my throat. Never say never… but you guys… the thought… the struggle is real.
Speaking of first steps he has finally decided walking is cool, so he’s now all of a sudden a pro at 14 months old. He knows animal sounds when you ask him what they are and is still in love with all things cars. Any big truck that passes us by he waves to excitedly kicking his little legs, or stomping if he’s standing. Time is flying!
He’s still nursing a few times a day and as of late all through the night… I’m trying to embrace it all, and it’s just another thing I’m holding on to for as long as I can in case he’s my last baby. My nursing goal with him was a year, so really just going with the flow of it. Just the thought of nursing being “over” is overwhelmingly sad.
Oh my sweet Zeno. Don’t mind your crazy mother cheering you on, but at the same time ugly crying, because watching you grow up is so bittersweet. Maggie and Mia this goes for you both too, haha! Zeno, you are the most precious ending point to our family with the joy you spread and your smile and happy disposition. You are so loved.
Going to enjoy this season of life to the fullest, whether Zeno is my last baby or not.
Friends, be sure to enter the giveaway for the JTV earrings I’m wearing in the pictures above. Giveaway ends tomorrow! Click here to enter to win.
Good luck! I’ll be announcing the winner on or about May 13, so make sure to check back then!